You can’t always drown yourself in sadness. You just have to show yourself you can smile despite everything that they do to you. (Taken with instagram)
Left Out
Ever felt like you’re “by words” part of something, but you know, and you feel deep inside, that you’re not really a part of it. That’s the exact feeling I have right now.
All my life I wanted a family. A mom, a dad, and me. I’m sure every sane person in this world wants that. But not everyone has that. You see my mom raised me all by herself. My dad married another woman, and he’d been aloof to us ever since.
Right now, I live at my mom and uncle’s house. Well this house was originally my grandparents’. But since they left the world, the house was left to us. Enough back story. Let’s go back to right now.
Right now includes mom working abroad, which I’m left with my uncle, his wife, and their 2 kids. You remember the feeling I mentioned? This makes the big part of it. When my mom comes home for vacation, I am treated like a princess. But as soon as mom leaves again, the world turns upside down. I’m not allowed to eat meals in my room, so I take my meal alone. In which no one joins me, ever. You see my uncle sets rules in the house, but he never abides any of them. And we’re like his followers since we’re afraid of getting beaten up by Goliath.
Just now, while I was having my dinner, I hear the four of them watching tv in my uncle’s room. Ya it does seem like a happy family. But hey! I am part of the family too! In fact I am an original at this house! But I think that didn’t matter to be counted as family.
And when this type pf situation occurs, a normal girl would tend to just breakdown and cry. And I am a normal girl. You could guess how I look llike right now. And I just wish this feeling can be forgotten so easily. Just like how they forgot that I am part of the family.
